8/2
hard to remember but i was in my neighborhood in LA and had a plan to go go thinking institute that was in my neighborhood for a lecture? it was hard to get there then i feel like i was waiting in kmart in astor place or somewhere in a city and it was really raining. everyone was waiting to go but i just left. someone who had a crush on me followed me i think his name was taylor. he had shoulder length hair and it was made curly by the rain. he looked biracial black and white. when i get to jung thing its in an old building kinda like becant lodge. supposedly in beachwood. clare is there and she is really upset. she tries to get made at me because this is not what she expected and didn’t like the event and didn’t want to be there. I wasn’t impacted by her getting mad - i explained to her - you asked me what i was doing today and i told you and you came. i was late due to the rain but still. sorry for that but you didn’t have to come to this. we didn’t have a plan for today i just invited you along since you asked. it’s your choice whether you like it and want to do it or not. i felt like i understood her concern but that she just didn’t like the event and that wasn’t my fault. i think there is a part where i was traveling too. i’m thinking of a motel room like in Inland empire. anyway i remember i had another friend who had a crush on me who was black and he made a joke saying why a biracial guy and not me. The dreamer finds themselves in their neighborhood in LA, with a plan to attend a lecture at a thinking institute. However, they struggle to get there and end up waiting in a Kmart in the city, where it is raining heavily. They decide to leave, but are followed by someone who has a crush on them. When they finally arrive at the institute, they are met with their friend Clare, who is upset and blames the dreamer for not meeting her expectations. The dreamer calmly explains that they had no set plans and simply invited Clare along. They also recall a part of the dream where they were traveling and staying in a motel room. This is where another friend, who also has a crush on the dreamer, makes a joke about the dreamer’s choice of a biracial crush. This dream may symbolize the dreamer’s struggle with conflicting expectations from others and their own desires. The rain could represent the dreamer’s emotions and the difficulty in navigating through them. The dreamer’s calm response to Clare’s anger may suggest their ability to handle conflicts and not take responsibility for others’ emotions. The mention of a motel room and the joke about the dreamer’s crush could symbolize the dreamer’s inner conflicts and confusion about their own desires and choices. Overall, this dream may be a reflection of the dreamer’s need to balance their own desires with the expectations of others.
