More from Beverley to school base of new children. Felt worthless like I wasn’t doing job properly and had been sent away and was devastated to leave current children.
New school ok but wanted more, decided to go back to college to repeat music course, got there and changed mind, felt lost and depressed and unsure of anything.
Went to leave and was harassed by 3 older lads (16-18) doing alright of hand and pretending to rob me (impression they would’ve taken everything if hadn’t fought back and tried to call dad but couldn’t get through).
Went back inside where they continued to harass, tried to appeal to their humanity but were dismissive.
More joined the lads so large group including girls, pulling at me and intimidating me, trying to throw paint over my head. I retaliated and push the paint over their heads and threaten to call police if they continue.
This antagonises them and they start pulling small knives out and slashing at me, manage to avoid stabs but they slash my hands and wrists.
Manage to get in the other side of double doors and ask for help from familiar people (friends from work, maternal figures) who help knock the knives out of their hands long enough for me to escape out of the building to get to dads car.
Explain would happened and stop in an area which mum and dad know the lads come from. People there are aggressive and respond by slitting everyone’s throats (though one nice man who pretends to do the same to me but instead swears blood on my neck and tells me to play dead, then shoves body on top of me in a cart). Bodies inspected by leaders of group who are satisfied and let the man proceed to take bodies for disposal.
I sit up in cart and thank the man but cry uncontrollably at what has just happened.This dream may reflect feelings of inadequacy and insecurity in your waking life. The new school and children represent a new and unfamiliar situation or environment that you are trying to navigate. The feeling of worthlessness and not doing your job properly may stem from a fear of not being good enough or not meeting expectations. Going back to college and changing your mind may symbolize a desire for growth and improvement, but also uncertainty and doubt about your choices. The encounter with the older lads may represent external challenges or obstacles that you feel are threatening and overwhelming. Your attempts to appeal to their humanity and retaliate may reflect your inner strength and determination to stand up for yourself. The knives and violence may symbolize the intensity of your fears and the potential consequences of facing them. The man who helps you and the bodies being disposed of may represent the support and guidance you have in your life to overcome challenges and move forward. The tears at the end may symbolize a release of emotions and a sense of relief and catharsis after facing your fears and finding strength within yourself.
