I dream of my Childhood love. It’s often sexual and romantic with a love that is often more than love. Although we knew each other till the age 12, we both appear older as we would be now. With us both being 17, maybe her 16. Anyway! In these dreams she caresses me, loves me, and begs me. I fantasize, about her and I going on walks, sightseeing, giving her gifts, having children with her. She always smiles at me, and is happy to see me. There are some points where I dream of going to her house in the middle of the night (if I knew where it was) and sing love songs to her. When it comes to the more erotic scenes. Often I would view myself as the opposite sex, although I’m born female, I would personify a male, with my present characteristics. I should also add that in my day to day social life, I identify as transgender, thought not supporting myself. In these “lovescapades” I would sometimes be nude, or fully dressed in my black attire. And would worship her as any man would. Covering her in my slenderness and pale contour, with the only light from my blonde hair. I should add that she is black skinned with midnight hair. During our romance, I’d go down on her, curving my arms around her thighs, or loving her from the inside from the penetration of my hips to her quim. She’s often enjoying it, and I take pride in it. I don’t know whether this is love or obsession?This dream may represent unresolved feelings and desires towards a childhood love. The sexual and romantic nature of the dream suggests a strong emotional connection and longing for this person. The fact that both individuals appear older in the dream may symbolize a desire for a mature and lasting relationship with this person. The dreamer’s identification as transgender in their waking life may also play a role in the dream, as they personify a male in the dream and engage in traditionally masculine behaviors. This could indicate a desire to fully express their true self and be accepted by their childhood love. The dreamer’s black attire and the contrast with their love’s black skin and blonde hair may symbolize a sense of balance and harmony in the relationship. The dreamer’s actions of giving gifts and going on walks with their love may represent a desire for a deeper connection and shared experiences. The dreamer’s question of whether this is love or obsession may reflect their uncertainty and confusion about their feelings towards this person. Overall, this dream may be a reflection of the dreamer’s longing for a fulfilling and authentic relationship with their childhood love.
