The Conflicting Desires of Love and Loyalty

The Conflicting Desires of Love and Loyalty
So me and one of my old best friends named Judah go play pickleball by ourselves. This is weird because he has distanced himself from me recently so we hardly talk, and we have never hung out alone. We are really flirty and touchy. Immediately we act like nothing has changed between us and if anything there's a spark there. But while we played I remember I have a boyfriend named Walker. I ignore the guilt I feel because I like flirting and Judah. After we play pickleball we get in the backseat of his car because his mom is driving. This is strange because both of us have cars and our licenses. We cuddle in the backseat and act like we're dating. We held hands a lot and i kept sizing my hand to his then he would interlock our fingers. We get to his house and snuggle on the couch together and watch a movie. He kisses me on the forehead and is really sweet. After the movie, I get back in the backseat and wait for him and his mom so i call my best friend Lily. I tell her that I still love Walker but I really like Judah too. I even say I would be willing to date both until I make a decision which is so not like me at all. I would never cheat on walker. Lily never spoke but i decided not to date both of them i will have to break up with Walker or tell Judah that i have a boyfriend because he does not know because we haven't talked til now. Finally, his mom comes to the car and starts telling me how much she likes me and how good I'll be for him. She tells me that even though he is not allowed to date she would let him date me. I get really scared, like how am I supposed to tell Judah I have a boyfriend plus i really like him, but I cannot break up with Walker I love him. We get back to pickleball and he hugs me pulls me close and tells me; "I know we haven't been talking but I like you and I want to date you. I am currently talking to a girl but I will call it off with her tonight when i get home." When he told me this i knew i had to tell him about walker. So I said, "Judah i have something to tell you too. I am also currently talking to someone and it has been about 4 months. If i was officially allowed to date we would probably be dating. Im so sorry." Then he gets really angry and starts yelling at me. saying "HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME?" I start to get very defensive and I said; "You were the one you stopped talking to me! If you liked me so much then where were you?" "What about the thing we had last april? Do you not remember how everyone thought we were a thing?" he replied "We never told each other we liked each other how were we ever a thing?" I said. then he calmed down and said "Are you going to break up with him to be with me?" I had to be honest and i told him "i cant break up with him becuase i physically and mentally cant live without him he is my best friend." Then walker and my friend kelson show up at the courts to play with us and Judah is hitting the ball as hard as he can at walker and targetting him. I start yelling at Judah telling him to calm down and almost cry. And walker is trying to just be nice because he knows nothing about me and judah and just wants to be seen as cool.

This dream reflects the inner turmoil and conflicting desires of the dreamer. The dreamer’s old best friend, Judah, represents a past connection and potential for romance. However, the dreamer’s current relationship with Walker creates feelings of guilt and loyalty. Playing pickleball symbolizes the playful and flirtatious nature of the dreamer’s interactions with Judah. The fact that they are alone and touchy suggests a desire for intimacy and a spark between them. However, the dreamer’s guilt and loyalty to Walker are represented by the fact that they remember their boyfriend during the game. The backseat of the car symbolizes a hidden and secretive aspect of the dreamer’s desires. The dreamer’s conversation with their best friend, Lily, represents their inner conflict and confusion about their feelings for both Judah and Walker. The dreamer’s fear of judgment and rejection is represented by Judah’s mother’s approval and offer to let them date. The dreamer’s anger and defensiveness towards Judah’s reaction reflects their own inner turmoil and the fear of losing both Judah and Walker. Overall, this dream highlights the dreamer’s struggle to balance their desires for love and loyalty in their relationships.