I had relapsed on cocaine and my boss said my nose was filled with white stuff. WhileI had someone sleeping over. My ex boyfriend reached out and said to come to long island. Where long island is where I was physically abused in another relationship. I left my friend sleeping over and said be back in the morning. I went to this sketch bar to wait and everyone from my rehab program was there. I felt guilt knowing I had just relapsed. There was ketchup everywhere on my pants. I went to the bathroom to scrub it off. My ex then picked me up to go to long island. He had been with my friends boyfriend that abused her and did heroin. I got sober with my ex boyfriend in real life. He then proceeded to hand me a laced joint. I smoked it.. he tells me hes moving to long island. And he lives with a heroin dealer that is famous and has a documentary on Netflix about all the crimes he has done. The dream proceeds and they get sick from the heroin. Random woman are coming into the home and being physical with my ex boyfriend kissing and touching. Then Joey the guy that did abuse me in long island shows up outside he had just gotten off work. I go to say hi, hes not interested. My ex taali that is doing heroin follows me. After a journalist i look up to shows up and i try to take a picture with him but none of them come out right. Taali continues to heroin. But despite relapsing I keep the facade that Im still sober and wont do heroin.This dream may reflect feelings of guilt and shame surrounding a recent relapse on cocaine. The presence of the boss and the white substance in the nose may symbolize a fear of being caught or exposed for the relapse. The sleeping friend and ex-boyfriend reaching out may represent a desire for support and comfort during a difficult time. The invitation to Long Island, where the dreamer was physically abused in the past, may suggest unresolved trauma and the potential for relapse triggers. The presence of the rehab program members and the ketchup on the pants may symbolize a fear of judgment and failure. The ex-boyfriend offering a laced joint and living with a famous heroin dealer may represent the temptation and danger of drug use. The dreamer’s attempts to maintain a facade of sobriety despite relapsing may reflect a desire to hide the truth and avoid consequences. Overall, this dream may be a reflection of the dreamer’s struggles with addiction and the consequences of relapse.
