The Struggle of Accepting Unwanted Gifts and Letting Go of the Past

The Struggle of Accepting Unwanted Gifts and Letting Go of the Past
dreamed my dad gifted me a big truck out of the blue, which i did not want but had to drive. i had to pick out the color and i chose leopard print with big orange wheels, which i instantly regretted and felt foolish about but it was too late. the truck never stayed parked — it rolled whenever i tried to park it! so there i am trying and failing to park my big leopard print truck in the library parking lot, where my bike is locked up. and i'm crying and late for the birthday party of a girl i haven't spoken to since i was 15 years old and i'm embarrassed and mad and regretting everything. meanwhile my bike is just waaaiting for me to park and load her into the truckbed, and i'm aching for that bike's perfect simplicity. the nice librarians are watching me flail.

The dreamer’s father gifting them a big truck represents a burden or responsibility that they did not ask for, but feel obligated to fulfill. The dreamer’s choice of leopard print and big orange wheels symbolizes their desire to stand out and be unique, but also their fear of being judged or ridiculed for their choices. The truck constantly rolling whenever the dreamer tries to park it represents their struggle to control and manage this burden in their life. The library parking lot symbolizes a place of knowledge and learning, suggesting that the dreamer may feel overwhelmed and inadequate in their current responsibilities. The locked bike represents the dreamer’s desire for simplicity and freedom, but it is also a reminder of their past and the person they used to be. The birthday party of a girl from the past represents the dreamer’s feelings of embarrassment and regret for not keeping in touch with old friends. The nice librarians watching the dreamer flail symbolize the dreamer’s fear of being judged and not living up to expectations. Overall, this dream reflects the dreamer’s struggle to balance their responsibilities and desires, and their longing for a simpler and more carefree life.