I had a dream I was in Meme and Papa’s family room and it was Christmas. There were two small Christmas trees on either side of the tv. The one on the left had pictures from memories before Meme passed away, and the tree on the right had pictures from after Meme had passed away. So far the only ones there were me and Uncle Jeffery. I asked “Hi Jeffery, where’s Rebecca and Amelia?” Then Jeffery said “Well right now Meme can only do so much. So anyone who wasn’t around before she passed away can’t come. So they can’t, Isaac can’t, Sandy can’t… but she’s hoping she’ll have more control next year and they’ll all be able to make it.” I asked “Didn’t she know Sandy before she passed away?” And Jeffery said “Well yes, and she doesn’t mind that Papa remarried, but she said she just doesn’t have enough control for her to come this year. She’s one of the people she wants to bring with us next time.” I was still very confused as to what was happening. I had no idea where everyone else was. Then I pulled out my phone and looked at my makeup and saw that it was completely messed up. So I was thinking if I brought my makeup bag, where would I put it? Probably in me and Lucy’s room. So I said I’d be right back and passed through the kitchen. Meme was there cooking like crazy. She was making a lot of food really fast. I tried to talk to her but she wouldn’t respond. She just kept cooking and muttering something to herself that I couldn’t make out. She looked like she did before she even had cancer the first time which I found interesting. Then I walk into the living room. The kitchen/ family room looked exactly how they used to be, but anywhere past that was different. One of the couches in the living room was turned wrong (upside down I think?), one couch was orange instead their normal gold(ish) color, the carpet felt odd under my feet, and the mirror on the wall had no reflection. In fact, the only thing that was in that mirror was how the room was supposed to look, I wouldn’t show up in it. I got a weird eerie feeling and kept walking down the hall. I get to this extra door on my right before the bathroom door and after the closet door. Of course I open it because “what’s this doing here?” And it’s a washer and dryer. I thought that was odd considering when I walked through the kitchen the pantry was open and there was a washer and dryer in there too, like how it usually is. I close the door and go to the bathroom. I look in the mirror and my reflection is barley visible, but I could see my makeup was messed up too much to just leave alone. So I go to my old room and open the door. There is this weird brown, almost human like but not human like enough so it kinda feels uncomfortable, standing on the other side of the room. My makeup bag is right by Lucy’s side of the bed. I leave it there and ask the figure, “Who are you?” The figure puts both their hands up and these wave looking things knock me down and take the wind out of me. I’m dizzy and can barley breathe. I’m trying to yell for help but my voice was fading and getting quieter each time. I realized nobody was coming to help me and started crawling back as fast as I could. I started to see other dark figures along the way just standing over me and watching. Something was very very wrong. I get to the kitchen and Jeffery helps me from the floor. I start going in and out of consusness and I hear him say something about my heart rate being really low. He pulls out one of those defibrillator things and I come back and feel somewhat normal again. Jeffery explained to me that Meme told him after I left that I shouldn’t have gone down there because she only has control of the kitchen and family room and she doesn’t know what else is out there. He said he heard me yell and wanted to help but Meme told him I’d be able to get back on my own and that it was too dangerous to go out there to get me. I went to ask her about it but she still wouldn’t answer me, just kept cooking. I offered to help but she said nothing. I started making Snickerdoodles in hopes that since we always made them together she’d talk to me, she didn’t. Then Josh Bethany, and Papa came in with three of the kids. Bethany apologized for being late and said she had to work a longer shift that night. I had so many questions. If everything had to be the same as it was before Meme passed away, why are we all our normal ages that we are currently? How did she “get control” to do this in the first place? Why would she only talk to Jeffery? What was that thing out there that almost killed me? Do the two trees mean anything important? Since nobody was really answering my questions too much, whether they just wouldn’t talk to me or they just didn’t know, I just kept baking and until I woke up. This dream may represent the dreamer’s feelings about their family and the changes that have occurred since the passing of a loved one. The Christmas setting symbolizes feelings of nostalgia and longing for the past, as well as the importance of family traditions and memories. The two Christmas trees on either side of the TV may represent the dreamer’s divided emotions between holding onto the past and moving forward. The tree with pictures from before the passing of Meme may represent a desire to hold onto those memories, while the tree with pictures from after her passing may symbolize the dreamer’s struggle to accept and adapt to the changes in their family. The absence of other family members, such as Rebecca and Amelia, may represent the dreamer’s feelings of isolation and disconnection from their family. The conversation with Uncle Jeffery about Meme’s control and the inability for certain family members to be present may reflect the dreamer’s subconscious thoughts about the dynamics within their family. The dreamer’s confusion and search for their makeup bag may symbolize their search for a sense of identity and belonging within their family. The changes in the living room and the mirror with no reflection may represent the dreamer’s feelings of disorientation and uncertainty about their family and their place within it. The appearance of Meme cooking and muttering to herself may symbolize the dreamer’s desire for her presence and guidance in navigating their family dynamics. Overall, this dream may reflect the dreamer’s emotions and thoughts about their family and the changes that have occurred since the passing of a loved one.
